Paralyzing

that's it, i'm done.

i'm done with all this,

i'm not running after you anymore,

we can speak to each other, but please,

please, don't tell me any secrets, nevermore!

i don't wanna know about your sex life,

don't wanna know how school's or your relationship's going.

just not now.

let me be apart, let me work on my own happiness,

and don't even dare to challenge me on a "eye-to-eye last one laughing wins", because i

couldn't look at your eyes without crying.

i will let things flow,

put the ship back into the water,

roll the dices,

and see where's my next stop,

where my heart's gonna fell again.

you already broke it into pieces,

and i'm kinda' gratefull about that,

because now i'm not afraid anymore,

not afraid to dive in someone, somehow.

i'll be living now, if you search me around,

you're not going to find me at the counter anymore,

i'm no longer needing "one more". (...)

tinha de ser :D

j

so, you underestimated me, and you told me all your weaknesses,

it was like if freddy k. said:

hey people, im coming to kill you in your sleep,

but, if you stop thinking about me, really forget about me, i will never show up anymore!

but if you do,i'll chop your face off and eat your fuckin' eyes!

so know, i've decided to stop talking to you, stop spending my days hopping that you'll be always by my side...

and you know what? i'm going fine! 'cause now, i don't even remember any reason why i where in love for that time, that much time!

and i'm now getting my time back, writing down all the days i lost for you, and crossing them off my past calendars, 'cause i don't celebrate religions sabaths, so i won't celebrate our days even,

there's no us or ours anymore, and you don't seem that much worried about it,

i think that's better that way, at least, i will not have to push you off when you start telling me things about your beautiful romance..

yeah, it's been 7 years already..